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MS has brought tears of sorrow twice.



The first was after diagnosis September 8, 1995, and then once again September 6, 2007 when I was taken from my family.

... my MS diagnosis is now 21 Years in the past.



Since 2013, I have been busy working on improving my environment and memory. I have managed to return to IT pursuits ... though doing so has taken me over 4 Years.

My first employment after High School graduation was for a carpenter building grainery bins. The roof needed 1" nails. I preferred the floor as it required 4" spiral nails.



I would hammer those nails using my right arm for 8 hours each day ... two blows is all that was needed. All night long my hand would pulse in swollen agony. The next day, as soon as I started nailing, the joy would wash over the previous nights discomfort with my arm fully recovered and getting stronger.

This may be why I still have use of this limb.

From my first work, I was hired in a Sask Pool Grainery Elevator.



After having received a truckload of ergot riddled grain, I was sent to the annex to sweep the grain dust down into a bin. That dust was well over my hip. After this, I borrowed a work mate's car for a short while. Backing out, I hit a concrete barrier and my neck was whip lashed.

Shortly afterwards I was in the hospital with phenomena.

Reflecting on grade school track laps I recall, I could not run a single lap ... very exhausting.

During this visit I discussed how well I believe I am doing:

1. I have managed to get myself back to work
2. the grip in my right hand has become stronger
3. my bowels and bladder are doing fine
4. my voice returned
5. I haven't been in the Hospital since April 2014

I mentioned how difficult it was after diagnosis to even look at the more advanced people. And how nobody leaves this life without a challenge.

March 18, 2016



Several months ago, I watched a Youtube video from Mark Passio's site WhatOnEarthIsHappening.com. Mark was articulating a conversation he had detailing his learned understanding. Once finished, his listener asked him what he was doing with what he had come to understand.

Mark replied that he was waiting to have all the pieces. His listener responded, "What makes you think you have the right to withhold the knowledge you have aquired ?".

After hearing this, Mark created WhatOnEarthIsHappening.com

I took this to heart as well.

I was admitted to RGH March 6, 2013 being discharged March 20, 2013.

After this event, I quit watching TV, cleaned up my suite and refreshed most of the Math I have studied from library texts. I had never studied Calculus but was always curious. So after Trigonometry, I taught myself.

The struggle flipping those pages and needing to be able to work the exercises, led me to acquire a touchscreen tablet. Previously, I had known of these but had dismissed the idea... thinking it would be too difficult. I turned this around with 5 words "I am going to try."

This hospital visit was the catalyst of my return to sensibilities.

March 8, 2016


Leaving home for extended care I thought my work life was over. I now find however my work only beginning.

Leaving the Emergency Room I was moved to 3 North for a short while.



While there, John the Hospital Pastor, came to visit. During one of our conversations, he mentioned my suffering.

I replied, "Funny ... I don't think of myself as suffering.".